My Observations

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These are my thoughts; though they may be public domain, please have enough respect and understand that they are mine and are not for the use of your own deviant agenda.

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Well here are some of the pictures of my recent trip to Oceanside with the youthgroup. We had a bunch of fun but I wanted to show some of my favorite pics and a couple of the group shots.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

Ok so new favorite Starbucks drink is = grande/venti mocha frap with caramel on top and extra caramel in the cup! Mmmmmmmmm Yum!

So what is the definition of irony? Irony = my life. HAHAHAHA Actually I was going to look up the definition and couldn't find one that expressed the situation to it's fullest extent. And even worse I'm not gonna go into the situation and explain it. But life is amazingly ironic at times.

Ok work got busy and I have to go.

Thursday, July 17, 2003

FTP bummed out and can't upload my thumbnail. Will upload as soon as I can.

Saturday, July 12, 2003

Ok so Pirates of the Caribbean was everything and more! I worried that I set it up to be such a great movie and have it be a let down. It wasn't! They did a GREAT job! I laughed cause they really included every aspect of the ride at DisneyLand! I used to have a season pass and that was one of my favorites, we would ride that one a few times each trip! It was just a trip to see the ride come to life in a movie! And I won't lie, Johnny Depp looked great! My co-worker David asked if the eyeliner didn't turn me off, and I had to remind him that I used to be a wannabe goth! So guys wearing eyeliner turn me on. ;) HAHAHA

So I woke up this morning at 7:58am and I was supposed to leave for work at 8:15am! So needless to say I ran around like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to get at least semi ready to work a whole day. I brushed my teeth, and my hair, threw on some clothes, grabbed my makeup and work bag and ran out the door. I got to work in a little over 30 minutes! Put on some makeup and haven't taken a call yet and it's 10:00am!

My parents are in Minnesota and will be there until about the 15th I think (My dads side of the family is having a reunion and I am stuck working) then they're off to Montana for my moms side of the family and will leave on the 23rd. I'm bummed I couldn't go along. My cousin Leif on my dad's side, isn't doing so hot. I wrote him back in April but just called him today. I am still hoping he will contact me. It's been almost over 10 years! He's going through it and now that the reunion is planned he's been back on my heart.

Well I guess I'm gonna go read. It's finally mellow at work and I have some time to read my Harry Potter book. I've been told they are good and I really would like to read them before watching the movies, but I'm starting to think that won't happen. But either way, I'm gonna go stick my nose in a book. :)


Friday, July 11, 2003

So here I am at work. Totally strung out on coffee! Venti Mocha Frap no whip baby! Second one of the day and I'm feeling a bit wired! Just a wee bit! ;)

I had an emotional breakdown at work yesterday. I think I had everything come down on me at once. Overload + PMS = Tazmanian Devil!!! haha But today I feel regenterated, refreshed and ready to deal with lifes daily stresses.

So tonight I get to go see "Pirates of the Caribbean"!!!!!!! All I have to say is Johnny Depp and those cool cursed skeleton guys. Ok well friends showed up and I'm gonna give them the grand tour of my work.

Monday, July 07, 2003

Well where do I begin? I love starting statements like that! I've realized my sister and I have the same exact outlook on life, "go, go, go and go... big sigh... and go some more". I think we like chaos. ;) It's not necessarily the greatest way to approach life, but it can be fun.

So here it is July 7th already and my weekend was non-stop! Last weekend I saw a friend of mine get married. I was one of her bridesmaids. It was an outdoor wedding and amazingly came together in the end even with everything going wrong. But after taking a week to think about the marriage I feel bad for my friend. I hate to say that she has made a decision for a rough life. Her marriage will be a rough one, unless God intervenes for them both. Which I will be praying for. I just realize that they don't have the love that I hope to have in my own marriage. Not saying that's the only way to be in love, but it seems that they aren't TRULY in love. I then went to another wedding exactly a week later. I felt like I was in the lineup with how much I did for the wedding. But I had a blast being apart of it. She's a really good friend and her wedding turned out awesome! I had a lot of fun helping out. I am starting to tell my heart towards getting married and having a family of my own is changing. I never felt the desire to be married or have kids and have a home. Now it's something that I'm very much so desiring and looking forward to having myself. Being at these two weddings showed me how much I want for my own wedding. It gave me ideas of the do's and don't's of weddings.

I've been doing a lot of soul searching. In the last month and a half to two months I've avoided any deep thoughts about my motives and desires for doing the things that I do. I think about it, but I usually run away from my thoughts. But I'm starting to get reorganized again. I've found that organizing my debt and making payment arrangements to get my credit under control has made me realize how many other things in my life need to be changed and organized. So what if I don't have a life for now, as long as I keep on the right track, in a year or so things financially and physically can get back on track. I've been gaining weight rapidly and getting very depressed and need to get it under control. I'm miserable in my clothes, but haven't found the motivation to stick to losing it. Well I think God has given me that motivation. But we will soon see how it goes. I have one week before I can afford to do anything about my diet but I can at least start going to the gym! This is my main desire. Working at a desk job hasn't helped my weight loss either. I need to start doing more physical activities.

Well it's time that I go to work. Maybe if it's slow I'll write more cause there is a lot more that I'd like to discuss. But most likely it will be pretty busy today so who knows. I'll write more when I can!