My Observations

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

Goodness! I'm finally home from my fun-filled weekend!

Today is my little nieces 11th birthday! Happy Birthday Amber!

Lets see though, there is a ton I missed out on telling. Do I want to go back and relive the last week or so? Or do I want to just go over the highlights? I think highlights would be best.

So after my post on Monday November 15th, I did something to my back. I'm still not sure what it was but I'm better now and I know I was healed! I was unable to move without feeling the most intense overwhelming pain I believe that I've EVER felt in my life! I could not stand, walk or sit without wanting to cry. I forced myself to go to work Tuesday but left early. Wednesday I went to work again in huge amounts of pain but that night at church I had everyone pray for me. It wasn't immediate but the next morning the pain was minimal by the time I finished getting ready in the morning. Friday the pain was minimal by the time I was half way finished getting ready in the morning and so on until one morning the pain was gone! And it truly affected my outlook on everything! I was so grateful to be able to walk without the pain that I exuded joy! I was full of happiness and thankfulness!

Oh and the snow! It was wonderful! It was the most snow that I've seen since I've lived here! It always snowed through the night but stopped in the morning and would melt by the afternoon. This time it snowed for more then 24 hours straight! And the snow stayed on the ground for 3 WHOLE days!!!! It was great! I loved it!

Then Thanksgiving... It was a lot of fun! My family came over and since my mom has her foot in a cast she couldn't do a lot of the cooking so we had fun doing it with her trying to get involved and us forcing her back to her seat! :) The food was great! And we just relaxed and had a good time.

I went to bed fairly early because I needed to be awake at the butt crack of dawn the next morning... And no I didn't go shopping... I went shooting! I decided not to brave the insane stores but to go out with Sam and company and have fun shooting. I'm not very good. But it's fun. I played with a lot of new guns, mostly hand guns. There were more people out this time then the last time I went with everyone so I actually did enjoy a lot of watching... David and his brothers are really good and fun to watch. We got out there at around 9am and stayed till about noon. We stopped off for food and headed back.

When I got to Sam's I got directions for my brothers place and headed out to Oxnard for the weekend! The first night at my brothers we went out to dinner and I pretty much just vegged in front of the tv.

Saturday we went driving and went out to Barnes & Nobles and Brian was looking for books on the business and I enjoyed reading about Vameer's art. It seems rather silly that I read the book "A Girl with A Pearl Earring" and then watched the movie and now have an interest in his art work. Though I had recognized a few of his paintings from my art history class. It was just interesting to read about the history of most of his work and how often he used the same pieces of clothing or accessories for his subjects, and used his own household items in numerous paintings. So after that we went to watch "Alexander" and well it was a 3 hour movie! And as much as I'm grateful they did not take the gay overtones as far as they could have it really wasn't a great movie.

Sunday, this morning, I got up and Brian and I went to a church. He hasn't found a home church but this was the first one we tried. It was decent. They taught pretty much our beliefs though I know Brian will try more churches before settling into one. We went out to lunch and then back to his place to work on a flyer for drivenIT. It ended up not being very fruitful so I decided to head home and work on it from here.

So there you have it. My fun-filled weekend! It feels like I've had a week off of work, though I'm not ready to go back. But it was a good time and now I'm just exhausted! I need to get busy on the flyer.

CD/DVD Player: Ben Folds "Rockin the Suburbs/ Return to Me (David Duchovny & Minnie Driver)
Mood: Warn Out!
Link of the Day: Don't have one for today

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Pictures of North Carolina are FINALLY complete!

Family Pictures


The Outer Banks

Gotta get to work! I'll try to update soon!

CD/DVD Player: Ben Folds (Live)
Mood: Tired!
Link of the Day: I think you have plenty above ;)

Sunday, November 21, 2004

My friend James, whom I've often referred to as Mopmonster had a quiz on his website. I thought I'd check it out and create my own....

Do you really know Chair? Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!


Big, huge glorious flakes! It's beautiful! White! Magnificent! It's just billowing down. One huge flake after another! It's 1 in the morning and I'm out there throwing snowballs at my dog!!!! And at my dads office window while he sat inside scowling at the snow while he finished up working! How I've missed the snow! I mean TRUE snow, non of this half an inch crap! Glorious full blown snow! You'd think I was kid! I was totally giddy! Running about in it! I so wish it was earlier in the evening and I'd *still* be playing in it!

But alas I must sleep... Goodnight

CD/DVD Player: A Girl with A Pearl Earring
Mood: Elated!
Link of the Day: Of course a link to pictures of actual snowflakes!

Monday, November 15, 2004

Ya know, I have to admit I've missed writing on my blog. I know there are some that just don't quite get how it feels to journal, and whether or not people read it's a release for me.

I came back from North Carolina with a huge load of crap landed in my lap. I haven't felt that frustrated about things in a long time! I came home to knowing that we have to move out of our house. Yup... It's official, January 15th. So not knowing what I should or can be doing is a bit frustrating. My parents want me to continue to live with them and well as much as I love them I want to move out on my own. But I know they could use my help. So right now it's kind of up in the air about what we're going to do or where we're going to live. My dad can't really get a loan because he doesn't have proof of income being that the church pays him what they can when they can. So I sometimes wonder if maybe I should try for a loan. I just paid off my car yet I feel my credit is so bad no one would approve me. But I figure what's the harm? I get to apply for a loan to help my parents out and get my credit score all in the same time. The worst that could happen is that they pre-approve me for a TINY loan and then we'll know that's not the route we can take. So we shall see. I am feeling rather skeptical about being given a loan large enough to buy a home, but I don't want to not try to do something to help.

Work was hectic my week back. I had a lot of catch-up to do. Also I was supposed to start today working 4 hours a day in the sales and 4 in billing. The deposits thankfully have been taken off my shoulders and that is the most time consuming task I have in billing. So when I got into work this morning I was mentally prepared to take sales calls but had no clue how to log into the sales queue or what to do. So today was not a good example of what an average day would be like for me. I'm hoping that they will have my login ready in the next couple days. In the meantime I will just go where I'm needed.

I just feel like my life is in upheaval right now. Everything is so uncertain. I have my moments when I feel scared, then excited, then frustrated, or in denial... I feel tired right now. It hasn't overcome me but I feel like it's all a blur. I have more that I've dealt with that I just don't know how to share.

I have been working on my North Carolina pictures. I'm not sure when they will be posted. I hope soon though. I went to see Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason and must admit that the 1st one hit more to home then the 2nd. The 1st was about a girl who wrote in her diary for everything, she also had a choice between two men, one right for her and another that was not right for her. I had both situations in my life at the time. She struggled with being heavy and insecure. I think it hit home for me. The 2nd was very good too, but she rarely wrote in her diary, and it was basically dealing with relationship issues. Colin Firth was still gorgeous. Hugh Grant was a hottie too. But I think because I liked the first one so much, the 2nd just didn't meet up to the 1st for me. But I will still own it when it comes out on DVD. :) hehe

well this has been in my drafts for a couple days now. I'm gonna go ahead and post it. I have yet to complete the pictures of North Carolina. But I will try again tonight.


CD/DVD Player: Air1 radio - online
Mood: so-so
Link of the Day: Cool Car Transformer - Another one of Sam's cool links

Monday, November 08, 2004

This is my last day in North Carolina. It has been a wonderful trip. I've been to the farthest point east which is really cool. I got to go to The Outer Banks... It was beautiful! And definitely a trip I hope that I will always remember. I didn't capture enough of the beauty with my camera. I rolled up my pant legs and touched the Altantic Ocean. The water wasn't cold at all even though the air was a bit chilly. I didn't get as much time out there as I would have liked. The drive there was 7 hours! We had only a few hours there before we had to drive back. We left the house at 6:30am and still only had 5 hours there. We of course had to eat lunch. We stopped at a place called Dirth Dicks. And not only that their tagline as vulgar as it sounds was "I got my crabs from Dirty Dicks!" and I seriously had to laugh! Quite vulgar and clever if you could be both in one. :) hehehe The food was ok. The prices were too high. And there was a wedding reception going on. We drove to Cape Hatteras Lighthouse which is the most famous of all the lighthouses along The Outer Banks. I saw another one on the way but we didn't have time to stop by and see it. It was a fun trip. I only wish I had the whole day to be there.

The rest of my time here has been great. I've had my moments because of PMS but I knew I was just being too touchy. So that aside I really did enjoy myself! I spent time with my neices and nephews which was awesome! I miss them sooo much! I took a couple nature walks and got some great shots of the area around my brothers house. I even got to ride a motorized scooter! Which was surprisingly fun. hehe So hopefully I'll get the pictures of my trip up soon... Though when I get home I'll hit the ground running. I will arrive in Ontario at 10:55pm and get home and in bed hopefully by 12:30am and wake up at 5am to a beyond full day of work, then rush home for youthgroup. Then get to bed and get up for another day of catchup at work and get home in time to get to my wednesday night class which is a test that of course I didn't take time to study for while I was out here. Oh lovely! So Thursday I'll go to work and hopefully have a night of relaxing.

There is one thing I'm uncomfortable about and not sure what to do. My parents have had an issue come up with the place that we're renting from. The lady wants to sell the house. We're not sure if that's going to happen. We're thinking about buying the house but are still not sure what God has in store. If we move to another place I might have to move out on my own. Which my mom is totally against. But who knows what's going to happen. It's just a bummer since everything was worked out and I've been used to that house. But God has a plan. I just hope I'm ready for it.

CD/DVD Player: Nothing
Mood: Anxious
Link of the Day: Cape Hatteras Lighthouse

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Again I'm sitting in the dining room at my brothers house in North Carolina. It's 8:55pm which means it's only 5:55pm in California. I had talked to Sam and Rachel at about 7:30 and it was still light out there and it was completely dark here. It was an odd feeling. Youthgroup hasn't even started yet! They are having a dressup game night and I'm rather bummed I'm gonna miss it.

So today I actually got out and saw the local North Carolina. We went to the Concord Mills which is a twin of Ontario Mills in California. Even the annoying greeting as you walk through the different enterances letting you know what neighborhood you're in. I bought a bunch of gifts for my neices and nephews to make up for the lack of birthday presents sent to them this year. hehe The stores were pretty much the same. I found one store named Past and Presents that looked rather cool. They had a similar store to Barnes and Nobles named Books-A-Million. I ended up buying The Hobbit for my fly home and pretty much any of my relaxing time here. I bought The Girl with a Pearl Earing at the airport in Ontario and finished that in two settings. So I needed more reading material. After the many pages of Harry Potter books these 200+ page books seem like mini reading. hehe I'm still looking forward to Book #6 coming out for Harry Potter. I'm still not sure when it's going to be released. Oh well.

Anyways, right now my mom, Brenda, Rachel (person living with shawn and brenda), and myself are watching An American President as we change over for Presidential updates. I'm glued to for the election updates showing the details of what state voted for who. Looks like I'll have to be up for a while to get a good view of what's going to happen. The link will be below.

So right now I'm pretty relaxed though it was a long day with a bunch of kids. I'm really not sure how Brenda does it. I was exhausted by the time 5pm came around and we were in line to watch Sharktale.

Well I'm gonna enjoy the rest of my evening. Goodnight.

CD/DVD Player: Nothing
Mood: Peaceful
Link of the Day: CNN Presidential Election Updates

Monday, November 01, 2004

So I'm sitting in the dining room of my brothers house in Cornelius, North Carolina typing on my sister-in-laws Sony Vaio. It's a cool little machine. Though my fingers are a little big for the keyboard. It's about 12:50pm here and about 9:50am in California. My trip out here was fairly uneventful. Surprisingly not a lot of people were on the flights. So that was nice. And luckily I got exit seats for both flights. Sam dropped me off at the airport at 10:15am and I left Ontario at 12:05pm pretty much on the button. I stopped off at Minnesota and arrived in North Carolina at 9:55pm. I got there and the girls were totally shocked to see me! I wasn't even sure if they'd even recognize me!

The next morning I woke up and got ready for church. I got to see my nephews that had been sleeping the night before. I went to church and ended up seeing more people then I had expected to know of me and where I came from. I explained that I was from the desert but it was rather funny when she asked if it was around Hesperia, Ca. I laughed cause that's exactly where I live but no ONE even in California knows where Hesperia, Ca. is. :D hehehehe She had known a family that was part of the church we went to before my dad became a pastor. I also had a lady introduce herself to me and asked if I remembered her. Her husband taught in the school we went to in Alaska! I didn't recognize her but I recognized him as the teacher who taught my older brothers and sister. After church we went out to lunch at a buffet and as we walked out I tripped that people were actually smoking inside! I am grateful that law was passed in California.

That evening my neices kicked out their parents and we had the night with the kids. We watched Finding Nemo after the girls did their performances for my video camera. It's kind of interesting to watch them perform. They were in bed before their parents got home and I stayed up late with Brenda watching tv.

I woke up this morning at 9:15! Gotta love it! I took my time getting ready. Now we're just hanging out around the house. The girls and Jack are at school. It's 12:46pm here. I'm definitely enjoying my vacation so far. Tomorrow the girls don't have school so we're hoping to get to the beach. :D YAY! I can't wait to see the Atlantic ocean from land. hehe We're still not sure how or when we're going to get to the Outer Banks where all the lighthouses are. I'm still hoping that will happen.

Well Brenda needs her machine. I'll try to update later in the week.

CD/DVD Player: Nothing
Mood: Relaxed
Link of the Day: JibJab Video of Bush and Kerry in honor of election day tomorrow.